I promised myself I would not post this until I was in possession of something I have waited MY WHOLE LIFE to receive. Though negotiations have been going on for about three months, I wanted to wait to "go public" until I knew for sure. Because I have been so close before but things fell through. And I didn't want to jump the gun... just in case that happened again.
But today, in the mail, looking every bit like an ordinary piece of mail, was an envelope that contained:
MY FIRST EVER BOOK CONTRACT!!!!!!!!!
That's right. It's true. I am finally-- after just shy of five years of submitting proposals and being rejected time and time again-- going to be published. Kregel Publishing has offered me a contract to write a book on marriage and money. Actually, Curt and I are going to do this book together. Because I couldn't write on finances without him. He is the one who does financial counseling with couples and has helped me understand finances like I never would have with my English major brain.
So, under the guidance of our most awesome agent, Bill Jensen, we decided to write a very honest book about our struggles with money and how it hurt our marriage and alllll the many lessons we have learned. In a shaky economy, this book is well-timed and we are so excited that a publisher has taken it and run with it. The book is going to be out, Lord willing, on January 1. Which is super fast for a publisher to turn a book around. But Kregel feels that it is a timely subject that needs to be out there for those couples who are struggling. I couldn't agree more.
One blessing in my broken foot is that I knew that I was probably going to be getting a contract and was able to begin writing during the time that I was sitting. Consequently, I was able to write a lot of the book over the past month. That is a huge blessing. The neat thing is, I was sort of dreading writing this book, as I was afraid the subject matter would bore me. But I have had an absolute BLAST writing it!! I have thoroughly enjoyed remembering all the things we have walked through and celebrating what we have learned all over again.
I am so stinking excited about this book and pray that God will use it in a mighty way to touch the lives of couples who are struggling with money and, consequently, struggling in their marriage too. We were that couple. We know firsthand how money can affect every aspect of your marriage. It is exciting to think that, through this book, our story (and the stories of friends who have also been willing to share) will help others find hope.
A final note about seeing a dream come true. It never happens the way you think it will. When my agent called to tell me that I was being offered a contract, I was down on my knees scrubbing a toilet. I thought to myself, "Well isn't this a fine turn of events?" After we hung up, I walked into the kitchen to find spilled juice on the floor. So, back down on my knees I went to clean that up. I had to laugh. My whole life had just changed, and yet nothing had changed.
If you are dreaming of being published or launching a business or being discovered for some talent you possess, keep trying and don't give up. One day, it will happen. But the funny thing is, by the time it does, it won't be nearly what you have built it up in your mind to be. No one will come busting into your home presenting you with flowers and singing "There she is, Miss America" while confetti rains down. Nope. It'll probably be as though nothing has happened. And yet, everything has happened. It's a strange but wonderful state of mind.
I thank God for allowing me to achieve a dream I have held in my heart since I was a little girl. Curt and I covet your prayers as we write this book.