Psalm 118:13-14, "I was pushed back and about to fall, but the Lord helped me.A few weeks ago we had a tense time in our marriage. There were days of not much being said to each other beyond terse, businessy conversation. I hate when things get like that between us but it seemed that neither of us was really into talking about the issues. We both needed time to process and decide how we were going to approach the issues at hand.
The Lord is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation."
Maybe it's just us but folks, Curt and I fight. We are two strong people with strong opinions. We don't fight as much as we used to but every few months an issue will sneak up on us and thrust itself into our midst like a pushy, uninvited guest. And it takes us awhile to escort the guest to the door and lock it behind him.
I read this verse during that time and it really spoke to me. I felt exactly like what the psalmist was describing-- pushed back and about to fall. I have seen so many marriages break up through the years and it never stops breaking my heart when it does. I don't want to be our future. And yet, as the fight stretched out over days, I did feel that "pushed back" feeling. I wondered if we were about to fall. Would this be the fight that finally drove us apart? Would we be pushed back so far that we couldn't find our way back?
And then I read this verse and saw the key. Yes, we get pushed back, yes, we nearly fall. BUT the Lord helps us. What I love about this verse is that it doesn't say we're never going to feel these hopeless feelings, that we're never going near the point of falling. We are. But it's what He will do for us even as we're struggling that we can hang onto. He is our strength, our song, our salvation. He will come through. It might not be as fast as we want. But I believe that rescue will come. Because God doesn't want His people to fall. He is fighting on our behalf.
Because of that I can keep praying, keep seeking, keep trusting. I can claim this verse even before I see the help. I can rest in the knowledge that it is, surely, coming.