Saturday, March 22, 2008

A Quote From My Devotion This Morning

One of the things I have been trying to grasp during this trial with my foot is what God has for me within it. The day the orthopedic surgeon told me that there was nothing else he had to offer was a low day for me. I told Curt as we drove home, "This is one of those moments where I don't want to hear that God has something for me in this. This is one of those times where being a Christian and trying to hear from God is just exhausting."

In a matter of a few days' time, though, my attitude has shifted back to a more rational, more focused perspective. I desire to learn whatever God has for me to learn. I desire to hear from Him. I want to draw from this experience His riches and His insights. I want to be that refined silver that reflects His image. His mercies are indeed, new every morning.

And today, as I woke up in that state of mind, I read this affirmation in my Streams In The Desert devotion:

"As Joseph did, we should be more careful to focus on learning all the lessons in the school of sorrow than to focus anxious eyes on the time of our deliverance. (Note: what I have been doing since this began.) There is a reason behind every lesson, and when we are ready, our deliverance will definitely come."

While I am still focused on deliverance from the pain and limitations of this trial (I watch the people walking together on these beautiful spring days outside my window and feel a longing for something so simple yet for me impossible. I feel sad looking back at all the grand plans I had to celebrate Easter with my children this Holy Week, now lost in the shuffle of merely surviving each day.), I am also focused on what God has for me in this trial.

And so, I continue to covet your prayers for healing, for grace, and for perspective that looks past the here and now. And for Curt, who is shouldering so, so much right now without my help.
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Debra Zantman said...

Thank You for posting from your devotion. I have been looking for a devotion on saturdays, didnt have one I will check out your suggestion..
Im going thru a small trial with miscommunication with someone and I innocently said something that didnt set right. I guess God will reveal to me what lessons will come out of it.
Thanks for sharing this day, God worked thru you to tell me its ok.
Been praying for you this whole week and will continue.

Anita Ann said...

I hope you are up and around soon. I know plans made that are not able to come to pass, can be upsetting. God will bless you for your patience.

Jess said...

i was thinking earlier this year about you reading "streams in the desert" and how you seemed to be in such a good season, would you have much to glean from it? but, of course, God had perfectly planned out what He would put in your life during this hard desert season.

love you-


Laura said...

love and prayers to you this easter weekend sister! HUGS...
Keep smiling!!!

Charlene Kidd said...

I knew you would come back around quickly. Thanks for sharing your weak moments. Sometimes I beat myself up for those weak moments. I guess I am not so abnormal after all.
I am praying for you. I hope the kids enjoyed the baskets.
Much love,

Amy Wyatt said...

Still praying for your quick recovery. Hope you had a blessed Easter.