One week ago today, I was having one of the best days of my life. I found out I had been selected for a speaking engagement and I got some good news about another event as well. I was happy and content and fulfilled in both my role as mom and writer/speaker. This is so rare for me. It was a day that everything just felt balanced-- neither side was weighted in a concerning way. I was doing life well. The cinnamon bread was baking in the oven, the kids were pleasant, the weather was spring-y (my favorite time of year!) and I was looking forward to our first small group meeting that night.
Ever have those days? I will admit that with a passle of kids, and life in a fallen world to navigate, those days are rare for me. There is usually something nagging at me-- a concern about money or the rifts that invariably happen in relationships; debating some life choice I have to make because I am a grownup now, after all; stressing about working out and losing weight-- you know... life stuff.
And so, I was appreciating that day for the gift that it was. I was literally going around in a constant state of praise to God, thanking Him for how wonderful things were. I really thought that nothing could make that day turn bad. Of course, I hadn't accounted for that hole in the yard that ultimately was-- literally-- my downfall. Before the end of my great day, I was writhing in pain, knowing that something wasn't right about this particular injury. Praying that with some rest the pain would go away and life could go on as before. Totally ignorant of what the coming days would reveal. Last Wednesday was a great day. Last Thursday was one of the longest days of my life.
My life today looks much different than it did last week at this time. The Bible is right:
"Now listen, you who say, 'Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.' Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, 'If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that'." (James 4:13-15)
And now my prayer is, If it is the Lord's will I will get better and rejoin life. Quickly. I haven't lost hope in the good days to come. And I have been sobered by how fast life really does come at you. Of course, none of life's surprises are a surprise to God. And in that truth I must find my comfort.